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Our Lady Peace - Clumsy----"yoga class for cats"

Freedom Day - Ash WEdnesday - Im at work...

a great news happened...
the next cllimb which is supposed to be in Mt. Tarak...march 20 21...will now be at Banahaw...march 5-7...but the trail will be in Sariaya...the hardest trail of banahaw...according to all i spoke with...
a new adventure...ahhh...


Now my sound is the whole album of Travis' Invisible Band............why does it always raining on meeeeeeeee

Hmm...Mon watched Life is Beautiful with mi familia...iyak si nanay..and wea(2nd namin)..hehheeh

Theres one moment that struck me...
I was with my niece patty, walking back after we bought a Mackarel for Novae-dog. As we were walking she was singing..."bumtiyaya bum tiyaya tiyaya bum yeye" i told her i dont like that song...
"Bakit Tito Vei?"
"Kasi walang walang ibig sabihin ung kantang yan...sige nga?"
Then i feel sad...for she sang "bubuka ang bulalaklak, dadaan ang reyna...."
while walking ahead of me...seems explaining to me..theres meaning to her song...
to be happy...and child-like...
that i cannot do then...
to be happy and simple
i played with her that whole afternoon,
while watching La Vita Bella...whe's in my lap...and i used her feet for clapping...
I had a pure laugh...i know I'm happy
before i went home to my place...i kissed her goodbye...
I could never be a child again...but i can learn



then I went to toby's to have Penny(my pentax) cured...hehhee
I really felt sad...I was talking to him for a moment..and in my mind...even if I am alone in mi casa...
ei...you should visit the doctor(Cubao Pentax branch) your all battered..
Your rewinder was gone...and we both tried to live without it...
but my friend will be marrying...in Palawan you will work as you never had...
we will take their wedding...as if it is your wedding or mine...we will treat it as holy...
love is our religion...
we can never have a better religion than what we feel when were in love
with the people that we love...
at your return..there will be hilde(my Holga) waiting for you...wish my friend will clean your lenses...to see
she will clean your view finder...
ahh you will look great when hilde came...


Lend Didith my head lamp...we went to a newly discovered coffee shop in Kapitolyo...
ahh its been a long time since we talked...my friend...
were always opposite...i am now out of love...you are just beginning...and hoping
we always hoped...for something someone...
i will win our bet...but i will lose in the end...
but i want you to lose our bet..believe me...
for your happiness...
that true happiness...
rare one...

So *%#in hyper..2 coffee...aahhh....
but good shop..
a clean...and the choice of music that they played...for our generation...
no for our group...pepole stucked in those musics we liked...


reread a farewell..continue to red it again...
sleepyness took me...
i should give in
i gave in..
nada

Arrived at 3am in mi casa...had a b-day dringking spree with my High School clasmates..it was heluva fun..remembering...the worst things we did...but never regreted it...plannin things to meet again...it was Raymond's bday...Roma(our gay friend), Jon, Rod, Ryan, Francis,, and 2 friends of Ryan...stories told...beers emptied...heads filled...uterus pumped active...grasses and plants watered...oh urinated...Rod slept...no more for him...it was a nice way to gather agan...and learned our mistakes...one thing i can never forget..."wala nang addict dito!!!" We all laugh and raised a toast for many things...
Now im at work...choco for the morn...brought sleepin bag and Earth pad for Ian...she's goin to Mt. Sto Tomas soemwhere in baguio...
later to EJs bday bash...shes a nice girl...so I expect no liquor..or else...i will be a gardener again...

Feb 13...movie overkill...pelikula at lipunan film fest

Astig(matism) by jon red


Feb 14

greenlights 630...robert lieberman was there!!!and intoduced his film...we even had a Q&A after

930 Cold Mountain astig...i loved renee here...and the movie has some hemingway touch..and sidney polack thing..that i concluded si sidney polack pala ang isa sa producer...but the wovie was indeed gave me dreamy effect...a longed love...once owned will forever be yours...


15- 4pm Riles-ditsi carolino(a new cras) ditsi was there to intro too..and i was touched by these film...esp the last part...when one of the star pen was singing-humming a mother song...and at the end both the stars mang eddie and aling pen was there for a Q&A he even brought his balut for him to cover the night he should sell this in the street...UBOS!

6pm CLOSING FILM: Edades by nick de ocampo....documentry din with reanacments and fictions too...an informationa doc...but it was good too...but im not a painter...a welder could not have what a painter can experience from what i saw....

aileen, alvin T, fiona, mar, jon, trina, iyce, leoda, kris, vei(weng-weng team)

well be doin our team buildin...paintball at Boom na Boom Carnival

and i called to you....
and first time you answered
maybe i was just thinking you were annoyed
with my voice with everything in me...with me

i cant dream...dreams of you don't come now...
and why do i have to call you
and remember your number...
as if i can always snatch it in aire
maybe your happy now...
as i am not happier than you
for i know you can always be happier than me
but i can never be happier than you
without you

this things that hovers around my mind
its killing me now
you said to call again
what if your already asleep
what if.....
ahhhhhhhhh stop this
am i talking to myself
i dnt know

i am talking to no one now
yes i am talking to my self
which is good
cause i know my self for too long now
been with you me...for almost everyday
in fact then im not with you
for i am with someone
but you know it
and youre not jealous or something
and now im alone with you
and we always tried to be happy
sober or not
in high lands or low lands
but i should try my chance again
shall we...
i think we should for you want me to be happy
and i want you sleeping when she is with me
you can sleep well when you know
that someone can see me..
you can rest well
you can just wake in the morning and ask how was
her
me...
me with her
her in slumber now
and you can always sleep as you always do
when i feel safe and un aware of danger
I should go on

where are u now...what are you doin...?
wish you just tried not to give in to him...
ahhh past pain paint pay
these rumblings
payment
my light
shadowed still i am

tom my sis Wea Bday...

the climb was good...no new faces but...to know some of the old faces better was a great experience for me...