Tuesday, March 30, 2004
This morning:
Dreamt of trips in a boat...maybe a ferry. And all i can remember was I went on the lower deck with alligned chairs, then came some friends, some with blank faces, that i knew. Jheck was there he asked me about my new camera. "Oh see I got my Holga." I took it out of my bag, well protected, showed it to him. And I turned it around and clicked something, came out the one piece goggles robotically it popped out, and it became an underwater camera. When the goggles was worn the camera will be above the right ear. And thena scene of friends gathered in some place outside. I was inside what seems like a giftshop cross with convinient store, and was talking with an exgirlfriend, asking if I've seen the movie, but I replied that i never seen a copy of that movie(which i dont know what). And we sat with my friends on a fastfood like table and chairs. The one whose planted on the floor. That was outside. Talked laughed. Then i said goodbye, i need to go somewhere. Scenes of running road...or was it a vehicle running with me...? and beside the moving road, the crashing waves...distant mountains. And then i woke inside a mosquito net in an old room with capiz windows. Went out and jump into another bed and folded(so swift) the another beds mosquito net. While i was doing this the opened window focused a piecefull feet of a mountain covered with swaying detailed trees that i can see leaves moving individually. Feeling of jubilation. And as I was folding or maybe just holding the mosquito net as I was watching the feet of the moutain trees, a mirror beside the capiz window(left side) showed my face filling the curved corner square mirror with my face jaw line peppered with acne or seems like ant bites, and i turned the other side...the same. And...oblivion.
Will be watching FHM party in NBC The Fort. With Roma and Bong.
(right click and show picture)
Went to Roma sa BaseCut sa Jupiter...to get the tickets for FHM Party.
Dreamt of trips in a boat...maybe a ferry. And all i can remember was I went on the lower deck with alligned chairs, then came some friends, some with blank faces, that i knew. Jheck was there he asked me about my new camera. "Oh see I got my Holga." I took it out of my bag, well protected, showed it to him. And I turned it around and clicked something, came out the one piece goggles robotically it popped out, and it became an underwater camera. When the goggles was worn the camera will be above the right ear. And thena scene of friends gathered in some place outside. I was inside what seems like a giftshop cross with convinient store, and was talking with an exgirlfriend, asking if I've seen the movie, but I replied that i never seen a copy of that movie(which i dont know what). And we sat with my friends on a fastfood like table and chairs. The one whose planted on the floor. That was outside. Talked laughed. Then i said goodbye, i need to go somewhere. Scenes of running road...or was it a vehicle running with me...? and beside the moving road, the crashing waves...distant mountains. And then i woke inside a mosquito net in an old room with capiz windows. Went out and jump into another bed and folded(so swift) the another beds mosquito net. While i was doing this the opened window focused a piecefull feet of a mountain covered with swaying detailed trees that i can see leaves moving individually. Feeling of jubilation. And as I was folding or maybe just holding the mosquito net as I was watching the feet of the moutain trees, a mirror beside the capiz window(left side) showed my face filling the curved corner square mirror with my face jaw line peppered with acne or seems like ant bites, and i turned the other side...the same. And...oblivion.
Will be watching FHM party in NBC The Fort. With Roma and Bong.
(right click and show picture)
Yesterday: Hilde was in my hands...MY HOLGA CAME!!!
Went to Roma sa BaseCut sa Jupiter...to get the tickets for FHM Party.
Thursday, March 25, 2004
feel so hateful today...
i feel mean to anything
maybe this is an effect of too much liquor last night..
i was drunk with happiness that i became so
undecidedly mean
when you are in it
you dont know you are doing something mean
afterwards realization came to you
mostly when i am alone this feeling come
when you are talking within yourself
last night goodye party for voltaire aka jonjon
was with my old friedns highschool classmates/friends
that i can say they are still my
and i am theirs
we had sooo much alcohol that something happy but hurtfull to some deeds
resurface again with us...with our acts
maybe were soo much used to it that we never notice it entirely
i will never know but it really came to me at this lame time of the day
will i remain like this
though changes in me came seldom now
or am i too stubborn now that iam me more unchanged
March 21
nalaman kong namatay ermat ni tinoy through Rod yesterday
Celestino Santos High School classmate ko Kumpare ko na pala
dahil inaanak ko ung panganay nya...almost 6years kong di nakita ung inaanak ko
malaki na pala...
so I went there had some beer with Tinoy, JonJon, Rona, Rod, and Bungging
Tong its(Two Hits) kami...nananalo na ko twice nahits ko ung Hits Pot...but i ended up
150Ph+ poorer...well I had fun again with these peeps
we really cant say "I am getting a day older"...
March 22
Pasig Visit Day...see nanay, patti, wea and zell...tried to watch Duplex...di ko nakayanan...pinatay ko...nagsounds na lang ako...Superdrag's "In the Valley of Dying Stars" and then Jars of Clay's "11th Hour"
Had some photoshoot with Patti with her pink graduation dress...pero B&W nga pala film ko..so useless ang Pink.
Went to the wake.
March 23
Work ...ahh the Headphones ban was lifted wala na kasi ung mga bisita naming mga Onak...
well so thirsty with sounds that i didnt played 1song or one album per day tripping
but random pick...fun
afterwork went to Bagong Ilog to meet Ferdie...dun din sila Jimmy, kiko, Jon, rona, mogsy, Amil, Romel...
patak-patak tagdadalawang Red Dogs...tapos natuloy sa pilsen tapos madami na pala..12mn we all went to wake
till 2 am...ton its lang
March 24
Libing ng Ermats ni tinoy 1:30Pm but i was at work. Had my jogging attire with me..plannnin to run again for the Halcon thing...work...lame...testing with Jake ok...jogged...met jheck to give the cds i burned for him...Jimmy texted: aalis na nga pala si JonJon sa friday papuntang London, un padespedida...when i came nakalatag na ang lahat...empi ang moni...andun si JonJon, Rona, Jimmy, Hamogsy, Amil, Romel, Cris, dumating si roma later, then emma, tapos si Bong and finally monde, hmmm almost 6 empi i think...with Cris motorbycle muntik nang matigok tong si Roma and Bungging. Magdrive ba naman ng salubong sa flow...tsktsktsk...di pa nga nila oras..buti na nga lang daw at di nasira ang 30K na Ilong ni Roma...hehehe...after empi..ubos na ang yelo almost..1 case na beer naman banlaw...tapos bigla na lang nagkakwentuhan sa outing outing...hanggang bat di na lang ngayon nga naman...un naghanap kami ng swimming pool...kaso sarado...ayaw may clorine daw ang tubig(wahahah) matututnaw daw balat namin...labo...un bumagsak sa bahay nina JonJon sa Greenwoods...I had a crowned beer and a plastic glass of beer while in the back seat of monde's car...we ended up with instant pansit kanton, pritong MayaMaya, and rice...tapos uwian na dahil maliwanag na pala...
pagkahiga ko...sabi ko maliligo nako mayamaya...it was 6:30 am almost...then it was 10am agad...so it was today na pala
march 25 eto..na-late
at naglipovitan para makapaglakad...hehehe
i feel mean to anything
maybe this is an effect of too much liquor last night..
i was drunk with happiness that i became so
undecidedly mean
when you are in it
you dont know you are doing something mean
afterwards realization came to you
mostly when i am alone this feeling come
when you are talking within yourself
last night goodye party for voltaire aka jonjon
was with my old friedns highschool classmates/friends
that i can say they are still my
and i am theirs
we had sooo much alcohol that something happy but hurtfull to some deeds
resurface again with us...with our acts
maybe were soo much used to it that we never notice it entirely
i will never know but it really came to me at this lame time of the day
will i remain like this
though changes in me came seldom now
or am i too stubborn now that iam me more unchanged
March 21
nalaman kong namatay ermat ni tinoy through Rod yesterday
Celestino Santos High School classmate ko Kumpare ko na pala
dahil inaanak ko ung panganay nya...almost 6years kong di nakita ung inaanak ko
malaki na pala...
so I went there had some beer with Tinoy, JonJon, Rona, Rod, and Bungging
Tong its(Two Hits) kami...nananalo na ko twice nahits ko ung Hits Pot...but i ended up
150Ph+ poorer...well I had fun again with these peeps
we really cant say "I am getting a day older"...
March 22
Pasig Visit Day...see nanay, patti, wea and zell...tried to watch Duplex...di ko nakayanan...pinatay ko...nagsounds na lang ako...Superdrag's "In the Valley of Dying Stars" and then Jars of Clay's "11th Hour"
Had some photoshoot with Patti with her pink graduation dress...pero B&W nga pala film ko..so useless ang Pink.
Went to the wake.
March 23
Work ...ahh the Headphones ban was lifted wala na kasi ung mga bisita naming mga Onak...
well so thirsty with sounds that i didnt played 1song or one album per day tripping
but random pick...fun
afterwork went to Bagong Ilog to meet Ferdie...dun din sila Jimmy, kiko, Jon, rona, mogsy, Amil, Romel...
patak-patak tagdadalawang Red Dogs...tapos natuloy sa pilsen tapos madami na pala..12mn we all went to wake
till 2 am...ton its lang
March 24
Libing ng Ermats ni tinoy 1:30Pm but i was at work. Had my jogging attire with me..plannnin to run again for the Halcon thing...work...lame...testing with Jake ok...jogged...met jheck to give the cds i burned for him...Jimmy texted: aalis na nga pala si JonJon sa friday papuntang London, un padespedida...when i came nakalatag na ang lahat...empi ang moni...andun si JonJon, Rona, Jimmy, Hamogsy, Amil, Romel, Cris, dumating si roma later, then emma, tapos si Bong and finally monde, hmmm almost 6 empi i think...with Cris motorbycle muntik nang matigok tong si Roma and Bungging. Magdrive ba naman ng salubong sa flow...tsktsktsk...di pa nga nila oras..buti na nga lang daw at di nasira ang 30K na Ilong ni Roma...hehehe...after empi..ubos na ang yelo almost..1 case na beer naman banlaw...tapos bigla na lang nagkakwentuhan sa outing outing...hanggang bat di na lang ngayon nga naman...un naghanap kami ng swimming pool...kaso sarado...ayaw may clorine daw ang tubig(wahahah) matututnaw daw balat namin...labo...un bumagsak sa bahay nina JonJon sa Greenwoods...I had a crowned beer and a plastic glass of beer while in the back seat of monde's car...we ended up with instant pansit kanton, pritong MayaMaya, and rice...tapos uwian na dahil maliwanag na pala...
pagkahiga ko...sabi ko maliligo nako mayamaya...it was 6:30 am almost...then it was 10am agad...so it was today na pala
march 25 eto..na-late
at naglipovitan para makapaglakad...hehehe
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Saturday here at work..and pwedeng mag sounds walang mga guest....
Trip added some frensturs..college frens and other...
im hearing now moonpools..
a while ago Superdrag's In the Valley of the Dying Stars
and for you...you rash unutterable thief hates me woman....
i missed you...surely i cant see it all
Trip added some frensturs..college frens and other...
im hearing now moonpools..
a while ago Superdrag's In the Valley of the Dying Stars
and for you...you rash unutterable thief hates me woman....
i missed you...surely i cant see it all
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
March 13
Watch Sanjuro-Kurosawa and Samurai Banners - Inagaki
Seen Anthony Sheila and Katz
Went home...broke..Tapsihan ni moomy dinner
March 14
Visit Pasig...watch The Pianist..bugged by patti..she wanted to watch pinnochio
i gave in...
March 15
Visit pasig..watch The Pianist finished it...and bought Lost in Translation
i came to love the film...the less the words said the more i can see love born...bourne...across two "lovers" of eyes and mind...bought a new shoes for the wedding of a coworker..Aldrin..and for work...
Bought Hemingways Fiesta:The Sun Also Rises, and meet the Avaloner...courier of Booker..paid 91Ph for Amy Tan's The Kitchen Gods Wife
Watch Sanjuro-Kurosawa and Samurai Banners - Inagaki
Seen Anthony Sheila and Katz
Went home...broke..Tapsihan ni moomy dinner
March 14
Visit Pasig...watch The Pianist..bugged by patti..she wanted to watch pinnochio
i gave in...
March 15
Visit pasig..watch The Pianist finished it...and bought Lost in Translation
i came to love the film...the less the words said the more i can see love born...bourne...across two "lovers" of eyes and mind...bought a new shoes for the wedding of a coworker..Aldrin..and for work...
Bought Hemingways Fiesta:The Sun Also Rises, and meet the Avaloner...courier of Booker..paid 91Ph for Amy Tan's The Kitchen Gods Wife
Thursday, March 11, 2004
March 8
i got this sudden burst of happiness...the weird thing is i still know not why?
or where did this thing commeth...
i started my day with zwan...maybe that helped...
march 9
work wholeday..nothing unusual...except i went out at 530pm...got to watch at CCP..egai sai..watched Life & Opinion of Masseur Ichi..i was with kathy...saw her and sat beside her...
Went to Vino's bday...bunging, rod, bai francis, mogzi was there too...empi drink..run out of beer and ice...but it was nice...all i did mostly was laugh at hamogz and gings anticks...classical!!!
march 10
The US counterpart was here Judy...hyper judy...introduced to all of us...no rela work on my part..the verizon OSP site was down..i cant get links for the uploads in there...
WEnt to CCP saw Kathy...we watch After the Rain/when the Rain Lifts happy movie..liked it...
home: read virginia woolf i cant read her anymore...read Kurt Cobain by Rollingstone instead...ahhh nibbana
i got this sudden burst of happiness...the weird thing is i still know not why?
or where did this thing commeth...
i started my day with zwan...maybe that helped...
march 9
work wholeday..nothing unusual...except i went out at 530pm...got to watch at CCP..egai sai..watched Life & Opinion of Masseur Ichi..i was with kathy...saw her and sat beside her...
Went to Vino's bday...bunging, rod, bai francis, mogzi was there too...empi drink..run out of beer and ice...but it was nice...all i did mostly was laugh at hamogz and gings anticks...classical!!!
march 10
The US counterpart was here Judy...hyper judy...introduced to all of us...no rela work on my part..the verizon OSP site was down..i cant get links for the uploads in there...
WEnt to CCP saw Kathy...we watch After the Rain/when the Rain Lifts happy movie..liked it...
home: read virginia woolf i cant read her anymore...read Kurt Cobain by Rollingstone instead...ahhh nibbana
Friday, March 05, 2004
Di ako sumama sa Mt.BAnahaw climb ng Amcor...sad...but i need to pay...with work...with money for hilde..i need time to spend...to spend that time..working with pay...i need it but...i know i just cant come..
naglalabo naglalabo
album of the day: weezer 5th
fave song ko ngayon sa album
Organ Player
The people come and lay down on the ground
They want to hear all the beautiful sounds
Of the organ player
But in the crowd is a bitter young man
He can't accept what the other ones can
That the song is greater than him
Spreading vemon in the crowd
Laughing ?high horses? are loud
The player plays ever furiously
He won't be swayed from the right melody
Because he knows its beauty
The bitter man shoots his arrows of flame
He's got to take out the source of his pain
At the cost of righteous thinking
Casting necromancer spells
Summoning demons from hell
The tones rise up
And spill his cup
He can't defeat this tune
Casting necromancer spells
Summoning demons from hell
Another verse and the melodies rise
A perfect tune doesn't need a disguise
Cause there is no fighting
And nature says what is high and is low
Father Time will reveal what is show
And the bitter man is falling
The tones rise up
And spill his cup
He can't defeat this tune
Another verse and the melodies rise
A perfect tune doesn't need a disguise
Cause there is no fighting
And nature says what is high and is low
Father Time will reveal what is show
And the bitter man is falling
On his knees
naglalabo naglalabo
album of the day: weezer 5th
fave song ko ngayon sa album
Organ Player
The people come and lay down on the ground
They want to hear all the beautiful sounds
Of the organ player
But in the crowd is a bitter young man
He can't accept what the other ones can
That the song is greater than him
Spreading vemon in the crowd
Laughing ?high horses? are loud
The player plays ever furiously
He won't be swayed from the right melody
Because he knows its beauty
The bitter man shoots his arrows of flame
He's got to take out the source of his pain
At the cost of righteous thinking
Casting necromancer spells
Summoning demons from hell
The tones rise up
And spill his cup
He can't defeat this tune
Casting necromancer spells
Summoning demons from hell
Another verse and the melodies rise
A perfect tune doesn't need a disguise
Cause there is no fighting
And nature says what is high and is low
Father Time will reveal what is show
And the bitter man is falling
The tones rise up
And spill his cup
He can't defeat this tune
Another verse and the melodies rise
A perfect tune doesn't need a disguise
Cause there is no fighting
And nature says what is high and is low
Father Time will reveal what is show
And the bitter man is falling
On his knees
there was one stump of cut tree in Mt. Sembrano, Pililia, Rizal that became so close to me..that I named him Boar 1st climb ko palang sa kanya eh nainlab na ko sa kanya..i even got a picture of her sa desk ko sa opis...the 4th climb ko dun shes gone burned to the ground..and she was not a boar anymore..tried to look for discernable features i loved..gone...i once planned to bring a saw along but i know she will be happier with winds, staring the stars at night...but i wish i did that stupid thing...a stump of tree that looks like a boar hanging in my room...what is to have..i know i have her still...the last climb(6th) i was with my friend Jheck climbing down he just said after passing Boar..."Wala na pala ung baboy mo?". I nodded. And we continued to run downhill.
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Feb 27 Giligans Island with Mt.Fellows joy, gary, dong, edmund, ab, drinkin spree which ended in baywalk and a late late or early meal at chowking nearby
Feb 28 Ayenne's Bday card read i'm born skeptic but it touched me...for i was shown what i still don't have a greater soul...end in alcohol-drowned mind..a lot of burp..belch better term...meet newbie pam the bf home and god-fearing jerry
Feb29 marikina...a baranggay in Conception fiesta...with coni and dinz old buddies of college days...conrad with jergens lotion in his pocket...dindo with nice cp...me with filled tummy...and drunk...
March 1 Visit pasig...watch One Hour Photo with family...Pati, Wea, Nanay. Left 3pm...Seatle's best Moot Oscar celebration...with TPTS...During kalawaan...Francis Bday...met old High School buddies...Roma with new sculptured nose of Ph35K...Rod...francis..and big time bong...roma's friend apple and the game girl funny Paula aka Rachel...i dnt know whaich name she prefer...nice face though...end in HIKS*
Feb 28 Ayenne's Bday card read i'm born skeptic but it touched me...for i was shown what i still don't have a greater soul...end in alcohol-drowned mind..a lot of burp..belch better term...meet newbie pam the bf home and god-fearing jerry
Feb29 marikina...a baranggay in Conception fiesta...with coni and dinz old buddies of college days...conrad with jergens lotion in his pocket...dindo with nice cp...me with filled tummy...and drunk...
March 1 Visit pasig...watch One Hour Photo with family...Pati, Wea, Nanay. Left 3pm...Seatle's best Moot Oscar celebration...with TPTS...During kalawaan...Francis Bday...met old High School buddies...Roma with new sculptured nose of Ph35K...Rod...francis..and big time bong...roma's friend apple and the game girl funny Paula aka Rachel...i dnt know whaich name she prefer...nice face though...end in HIKS*
